Me and my future.

After struggling for few days, a week , to be accurate , I have made a decision. My decision ? I don't know. I can't tell whether this decision comes from my true heart . Personally , i doubt that. As I have mentioned in the previous post , i prefer FORM 6 . My heart goes for that. But now, i wil be heading for Matric.

Matric will be a new adventure for me. I have to learn how to live by MYSELF. Yes. I do own a shortcut to enter local public university . I have a higher chance to get the course i desire. I still get allowance . Deep in my heart , all these are not important to me , I am certain that i will be regret over something .

The reasons i want FORM 6 . First , I would like to challenge it. I have been thinking about this after SPM . I aim for 3A . Wow. Is it very tough ? Think so . Furthermore , i want 2 more years' school life , not Pre U life. I am not ready to face the world yet. You may say that I have been too over-protected . But , thats what makes me fearful . Besides , I have something more to challenge . Those are sweet challenges i can say . I have to solve something between me and him . Giving efforts in something that you like for the person that you love is worthwhile.^^ I have just known how to treat him better . But now , i have to leave .So sad T.T. Leaves means, you might need to prepare for something to end. That hurts =(.

I am too tired to face this dilemma again . I pray that God can show me the path . Walk by faith , not by sight. Leave it all to God.

The Hardest Decision in 18 Years

The hardest decision that i have to make now , is to pursue form 6 , or matriculation.At first , I don't really plan to start off my blog with such post. I prefer happier posts . At least, something like , "Hey everyone ! Nice to meet you ! This is my new blog !" . My post sounds exactly the opposite,right? But this particular thing bothers me so much! Ok. The main cause would be , I got too many opinions from others. What more to say ? Serve me right. Sigh ....

When i know i was offered matriculation programme, I got the first opinion from my family. My brothers, who have studied form 6 , support me on that path . My parents too. They think that form 6 is better for me . So that time, i set my mind to go form 6 . Things started to change later. Suddenly , many people came to ask me whether i am going to matric , and once i say no , they gave me a big WHY . And come out with so many reason to persuade me go. Yeah , i admit, matriculation really offers WELL. It makes me so hard to reject it. It makes me feel like i am the most stupid person for rejecting matric.

I really feel SO FRUSTRATED.

Brief of comments on matric, THE OFFER IS SO GOOD , AND MANY PEOPLE IS LONGING FOR MATRIC. ITS SUCH A WASTE FOR REJECTING IT. IT GIVES YOU ALLOWANCE, ENSURE YOU A PLACE IN LOCAL U . IT IS THE SECOND BEST CHOICE AFTER JPA. YOU MUST GO .

Brief of comments of form 6, YOU KNOW FORM 6 IS SO HARD. EVEN IF YOU GET 4 A, YOU WONT BE OFFERED A GOOD COURSE. PRIORITY IS GIVEN TO MATRIC'S STUDENT. WHY YOU WANT TO GO?

So those are what i've got after asking around. A few stands for form 6 . They are special =). I ,to be honest , i prefer form 6 . Not that matric is not good, i just prefer form 6 . Maybe ,try to go for some challnges. I know matric also has its challenges , but i just prefer form 6's. Yeah, i am really stubborn. But i dont stand firm for my decision. The number of people coming to persuade me to accept matric's offer is increasing. And i am moved. I hate that. I am making the people-known-as-stupid choice . But yet , people dont look into your feeling . People are more materialistic . Maybe i should learn how to be that .. >.>

Anyway , Just , get this solved !